BOOM.

2005-01-31T02:16:00.000-08:00

nono. not today not tomorrow.
or ever again . i guess.

bye peoople! i tink im done with blogging already . heh heh .
so yeaah . hope y;all fellow bloggers would keep blogging then ,
coz bloghopping is fun. u get to know so mucch . heh heh .
(rite sheena?)

meanwhile , if u r kind enuff, do bless me with the luck and everything .
im hoping to get < 20 for my o;s . and pass my english and combined humanities.
thats the least im asking for.

and for now,
goodbye~!

im gone.

2005-01-22T22:33:00.000-08:00

while i;m gone and missing in action ,
do enjoy ur life people.

coz ..
i am sort of enjoying it too.
tutorials and lectures are fun . a weee bit.
netball and malay cultural society are fun tooo.
and so are the new friends in innova.
and so is tutoring a cute lil primary 6 girl.

all these haf kept mee oh so buzy like a beeee.

ps:/ would girls stop being so cheesy oredi on the net .
p.p.s :/ isit JC or POLY for me. boring qns. I NOE.

i'll leave ya'al with these pikchas.
oh SHAT.
i can;t . the server's doooownnnn
ouch .

okae nevermind.
take care people!

2005-01-17T08:07:00.000-08:00

i tink i'm mean and egoistic.
or egoistic and mean . either way .
im really sorry if i had hurt anyone in the process of my egoistic and mean way of life.
especially towards boys. okae im not lesbianatic or anything .
it should be the case such that im more gentler and less ego-istic to guys .
since im a girl. but i cant help it .

im so egoi-istic around boys .
i wun even sms the boi i like unless he sms-es me ferst .
i wun even kol to that extent .

yes.im that ego-istic and mean . nobody taught me too . i just am .
just blame my thinking .
i;ve been slammed an unblessed lurve life
but a fantastic extended bliss of family warmth
and im thankful fer that .

and i realised it duzn matter how unblessed ur lurve life or whutnot can be,
coz in the end u still haf ur mums and dads. ur siz and broz. ur uncles and aunts.
ur kuzzins and grandma .
and sumtimes, that;s all that matters.
coz they are the best people whu know u .
and the best to tell you what to do in dire straits or not.

mebbe tat haf turned me into an egoistic monster. having too much love?
o wait. whut am i toking about xia? hah hah.

but anyway ,
get it from me .
sumtimes u dun haf to make life so complicated .
it;s best kept simple.
i;ve learnt my lesson.

cherish what u haf people.
u heard it from the egoistic and mean grl .

2005-01-15T20:20:00.000-08:00

i tink my maths lecturer looks the best-est when shes smiling

yerp.she;s the woman there in jeans.
she looks so expression-less during maths lectures xia.
she should learn to smile often obviously .
not onlie during orientation .heh heh .

o aniwae, that pikcha there i copied from friendster bah .
so woopie. sorrie for infriging copyright laws if i had. LOL .

o one more thing . seee thee malay guy there?
i tink he;s quite unfriendly . okae im judgemental .
pardon me .but i haf nothing against him la . hahhahhaa .

2005-01-13T08:17:00.000-08:00

it;s just so ironical that .
there is people around me whum ive known for long and yet know little about that person everything . it duzn seems that i;ve known that person fer as long as i claim . it;s just tat mebbe i dun get that person much . and im trying hard to get that person but SO NOT.we claim we r close but actuallie we r not.thou i hope we were. and it makes a difference whether we r close or not.

and yet there is people around me whum ive known for not too long and yet i know too much about that person most things. that person claims ive known him for very long but the fact is its not realli. that person keep lamenting and bragging that we r close when in actual fact ,it duzn realli make a difference whether we r close or not.

oh you dun get my drift . becoz i aint speaking in proper language that is comprehensive enuff.
but life;s pretty ironical . gotta face it .

bottomline is :
sumtimes it pays not to be too nice to others.

2005-01-13T07:07:00.000-08:00

walau~ new layout screwed.
thanks ya blogger. and to photobucket tooo .
totally so NOTS.

my life has been very uncertain now
sumtimes glad sumtimes not so glad.

yerp . yerp.
nothing much more left to say
3 months have made me very tired .

2005-01-10T07:17:00.000-08:00

post prelims and pre o level blues.
did i get tt rite? LOL.

see that? he actuaally keeps it

with MO at mrs wai place.2003.

graduation .

momo remembers me! i am touched. sigggh .

.

MO ! I LOVE YOU
ok so cheesy . LOL

and so does meow mi sam!

a stingray for thought ? LOL

_____________________
heyy filzieeeee ((:

i miss eating stingray at school with
you. bah.
____________________________

i miss tt tooo men! lol.

nostalgic 'gain .
siggh .

2005-01-10T06:40:00.000-08:00

after a week of fun filled thangs , it;s now back to square one. proper lessons .no i mean . proper lectures and tutorials.

there was long breaks in between and u bet it wasn;t that boring. coz in innova, every turn i make , there;s sure to be sumbody or sumone i can talk to . or if not, just make friends la. so far, i;ve never seeen anybody with major AP . until of coz , the economics lecture.

okae. so there was this girl . her name was uhhh. i forgot. heh heh. but all i noe her name duzn match herself. its a nice name . okae so she was asked the qns " wad do u expect in economics"

and guess whut she said . this anti social freak actualli said " im here just to learn . basically tats what im here for . I AM NOT HERE TO SOCIALIZE " . and of course, thaaat was followed by a trail of laughters. even the lecturer , miss i-have-the-word-boring -writtened -all -over -my -body , was a lil taken aback. whu wudn ? sucha anti social freak. sheeshz. hahahhaha. farnie thou.

but it would be better if she would realise like whu in the werld would ever want to socialize with her. she fucking stink kae when i happened to b dancing next to her during the orientation last week at the sports school . EEEEW .okae. i am evil . heh heh .

i am not blessed todae. both lectures- maths and economics were BORING . okae mebbe siting besides wani and ima , duzn make it that boring afterall la. but still .

i had tutor job after that . went well . great

OMG!
moOOOOOOOOOMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
u r so sweeeet! how i wish tat was for me ey! hahahhahaha .
u bet i;ll cry a river. hahhahahahah .

i was touched seeing the clip men mo!
u bet i;ll pass it to ;em as sooon as possible!

and to all my swiss frens., hope u r doing and screaming fine!
nana! please be generous and share ur circle of MALAY GUY FRENS with me! ahhahahha
meow mi sam! i miss eating sting ray with u too! ahakz. i dunno if the rest do read my blog , but anihoot , hope y;all doing fine.
coz i am!

2005-01-09T06:06:00.000-08:00

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
twas pride lost indeeed. okae filziee. NEVER
NEVER. NEVER .NEVER . NEVER .
initiate it first . NEVER .

never!
twas a stab in da hart. truly
thank u very much.
we are SO OVER .

2005-01-08T21:46:00.000-08:00

so far so good .

yep. backdating... on fridae .

there was cca flea market. the usuals . emphasis on how important cca is important for u admisiion yaddaa yadaaa. students got to set up their own cca and if its approved and well received enuff, it might be set up . among the ccas tat students wanted to create was
fashion design club, floorball , sailing , dragon boating and a few more la. cant recall.
and i hate the sailing and dragon boating club creaters.
they actually cancelled at the malay people names. RACIST . GRRRRRRRRRRR.

wooot woot. of course , i signed up for MLDDS la. and two more.
just for the fun sake. and mebbe whu noes i might like it.
NETBALL and Modern dance club.

mr-i have-a-crush on is in soocer . and sufie signed up for soccer tooo! grrrr.
ahahhahh . hate her. she won the war coz she got to noe him first . thanks to the mr and mrs innova crosssdressing pageant . ahakz

oh toking about that , i itink MISS innova (which i s aboy ) is so hilariously farnie. He;s tall and really has the bods of a girl xia! haahahhaha. okae it was damn farnie la . the whole crossdressing pageant.

and there was also a lame girl whu actuallie wore her former skewl shorts and socks . and snatched the mike away from the MC jus to say
" actually i wore diz bcoz i want to thank my former schoool for nurturing mee..yadayadaa.."
gosh. very lame uh! bahahhha.

the mass dance! woot woot. could see the innovian-s high spirit. just to imagine how so very low spirit we were on monday and tadaaa on fridae, the innovian spirit was soo high . kewwwl babybeh.

so far, i;ve heard otha jc;s are having fun tooo . except from hongkeow. she said AJC was darn boring . ahakz . nvm girl , u;ll get out in 3mths time aight!

im getting the jitters for tomorrow! no not becoz of lectures but bcoz
i;ve gotta tutor a primary 6 student. ALONE. shat .
wish me luck !

2005-01-07T07:19:00.000-08:00

my lurve for humanities subs and sciences are so OVER !
woot wooot!

no more struggling with sciences .and no more memory shiteness in humanities.

im left with the passion for maths and malay .

economics? i had to choose between hist and econs. so yeah .
econs sounds sumting new to me . beats SOURCE based in hist men!

so u get the drift . i;ve gotten into the MATHS , ECONS and MALAY A class.
a102 and im in the same class with kuzzie sriwani . interesting ey . coz she;s a long distance kuzzin and i dunch noe her much besides the maths olympiad thingy we had in primary 6! LOL .

and im anticipating myself in a dilemma 3months time from now .
JUST IMAGINE .

~ THAT I DID WELL FOR O LEVELS ( god bless me ! )
then i would be contemplating betweeen staying in innova to enter U
OR
getting a diploma in creative media designs.

HORRROR! decision making sessions in life are never good for me . almost all the time i sucked in it.

the decision to join BAND in sec skewl . OMG. tats the siliiest ting i;ve ever done.
the decision to take up GEOGRAPHY in sec 3 .because i overlooked the fact that the reason i did so well in geog in sec 2 was because of the HINT HINT .

and a few more otha .

just imagine that in 3 months time. i;ll get nowhere .

but FOR NOW,
im enjoying every moment in IJC! innnova rawk.

more on the campfire tommorow n CCA flea market tomorrow. dead beat

2005-01-05T11:20:00.000-08:00

SHAT . i am so angry that the pen i used for my o;s went down the toilet bowl at innova jc .
is that like unlucky or whut! thats my favourite pen kaes. pilot gtechpoint. and it fucking cost me 2 dollars. but that;s besides the point . coz yeah. i thought it could be my good luck charm

but its soo OVER. very lucky me. right . o could somebody tell me why am i so ranty over the loss of a pen ? heh heh . ( NOTE : im having that time of the month and i lack sleep due to the frequent cramps ) so yea. u get the drift . hohoh.

and the teens magazine ( a very trashy magazine ) but aniwae i borrowed it from aveline . the horoscope section reads

LOVE: someone u love might just like u as his good friend.

oh great . oh wait . whu do i lurve ? happy guessing . but yes. it might hit the nail ya noe becoz becoz becoz uhhh ohhh ohhhhh . wooopedooo oopsie dasiee. bluergh . watever .

but on a very brighter note altogether , the orientation todae was woooweeeee~!
the walk across the milky way , they call it .
AURIGA braved through it all and we r still in the top baybeh . as in overall .

we call that team spirit. everyone in the group is just so unique . im beginning to percept jc life in anotha perspective. at least in jc , u meet people of ur equals . as in academic wise . not too smart and not too stupid in innova jc . just the right kind of people i should get to compete and mingle with . purfect.

actually i had a lot to say la .
but im not in the mood.
the cramps killing me .

2005-01-04T05:59:00.000-08:00

if anyone of my malay friends is interested in giving tuition , pls msg my mobile or call me kae
ive got this lobang . and the pay is liike 12.50 per hour.
more info to those whose realli interested kae.
( soriie but the lady whu runs the tuition agency wants malay tutors. i dunno why)

i have alot to say about day 2 . but where do i start ? oh but wait . lemme give a shooutout reply to moosey;s very loong tag . heh heh .

xx start xx
TO: MOOOSEY DOOOSEY! lol.
well okae dude. i agree with u . ijc rocks !we r staying till 9pm on fridae for the big bang and talent night. and NO! lit is sooo not me. i dun have a love for boooks la. heh heh .im opting for malay maths and economics . and my last resort if by any chance, im unlucky , i would take HISTORY!beats geography if u ask me . AURIGA meaans . (oh woops ) i forgot.it;s in the orientation booklet but i left it my dad;s car la. but what i noe is INNOVA jc is super obssessed with STARS . and the group ( we din come up with , we were assigned with it ) are all gotta do with stars laaa . so yea. u get all the names of the different STARS in the galaxy i tink .
heh heh .

tats ijc for ya mooosey

xxx end xxxx

now on to my story , i hit skewl in the morning with a sickening cramp and so tats further aggravated by the fact that my principal , miss i dunno whats her name , has a strong liking for long lectures! bluergh .

but nevertheles, i still got the fair share of relaxation during the pondering of the subjectcombi.

and i went to the singapore sports school which is like uber coool kae ! had the mass dance there. okae thou the dance is quite slow and dumb , ( okae pardon me ) ., but i still gotta appreciate the fact tat it was the teachers whu came up with it . and yea. considering tat , it was quite okae la ~

afterwhich was TELEMATCH! bahahhaha . this was perhpas the highlight of the dae after having had to sit though mundane MAGAZINE TALKS . ( war between newsweek and times ) and yadaa yadaaa.

i din play thou. heh . oh but my team won again top kae ! but its like totally woah . we were the last to start but yet we won the first place . ahakz . high chances we gonna top the board again tomorrow.

oh i so lurve my team .
now 3cheers and 3cheers and 3 cheers
for AURIGA!

tomorow gonna be interesting
innova style of amazing race!

2005-01-03T07:27:00.000-08:00

gayrek!

o woots. my first day at jc was ultimately sooo niceness that im just so afraid that i might fall in lurve with jc life and kiss goodbye to i-want-to-take- creative-media-design at sp plan;s . heh heh .

im exhausted . and sooo worn out oredi .
so much so that i decided to give up the tuition job offer at all .
skewl ends at 6 kae this week!

andddddddddddd ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
decision making again.
sucks

i;ve decided for maths , malay and
either economics or history .
between both which one ?
bluergh.

but i shall not tie myself down with this
coz im lurving every bit of innova

OMG! MLDDS! at long last . mldds . im sooo gonna join mldds .
are u raf ? hahahahhh a

orite . i;m in AURIGA group .and my ogl rocks baybeh! she;s a chemistry teacher but her zest 2 win is like woah . hahahahhh .

my team;s on the top score board leading write now ey. oh whut can isay .

im so lurving it . innova =)
and mind you. this caame from a girl whu gladly hated jc and didn;t imagine herself entering the first 3 aat aalllll . heh heh .

2004-12-31T14:27:00.000-08:00

honestly this was my

2004

1. what did you do in 2004 that you'd nv done
before?
fall in lurve with sumone totally unpredictable. ?

2. did you keep your new year's resolutions,
and will you make more for next year?
the o level results wil decide if my resolutiion was kept.
and no. no more resolutions for me.

3. did anyone close to you give birth?
-mah mum

4. did anyone close to you die?
-gladly no.

5. what countries did you visit?
sadly none.

6. what would you like to have in 2005 that you
lacked in 2004?
a more liberal and funn-er me ?

7. what dates from 2004 will remain etched
upon your memory, and why?
18th april
and another day in july ( gotta look at my diary ) heh ..

8. what was your biggest achievement of the
year?
surviving through swiss cottage mode of preparing students for O LEVELS!

9. what was your biggest failure?
not studying for geog o levels. triple sighh !

10. did you suffer illness or injury?
nah ..

11. what was the best thing you bought?
none .

12. whose behavior merited celebration?
ME ! aahahah

13. whose behavior made you pissed off?
none that i can tink of

14. where did most of your money go?
worksheets printing. neoprints and foooooooooooood.

15. what did you get really, really, really excited
about?
the end of o levels.

16. wat song will always remind you of 2004?
burn by usherr

17. compared to this time last year, are you:

a) happier or sadder?
sadder

b) thinner or fatter?
thinner.

c) richer or poorer?
poorer

18. what do you wish you'd done more of?
study more geog and b more on timeee on all matters.

19. what do you wish you'd done less of?
SLEEEP!

20. how will you be spending new year?
at HOME . every yearrrrr

21. did you fall in love in 2004?
-OH MY GOD.ahahahhaha. yes .

23. what was your fav tv programme?
spore idol

24. do you hate anyone now that you didn't
hate this time last year?
YES.

25. what was the best book you read?
none.heh heh

26. what was your greatest musical discovery?
not sure.

27. what did you want and get?
uhhhmmm i hope i could get it this march so yea ~!

28. what did you want and not get?
MONEY -a whole load of em!

29. what was your favorite film of this year?
none *

30. what did you do on your birthday, and how
old were you?
went out with my kuzzin . yeaaa. sweeet sixteen.

31. what one thing would have made your year
immeasurably more satisfying?
be less ego-istic?!

32. how would you describe your personal
fashion concept in 2004?
girlish .

33. what kept you sane?
lovely twinie .

34. which celebrity/public figure did you fancy
the most?
noone.

35. what political issue stirred you the most?
heh heh. none.

36. who did you miss?
mah bro ! t

37. who was the best new person you met?
not considered new . =P

38. tell us a valuable life lesson you learned
in '04.
dun be so egoistic.
hard work begets success .
and love is blind.

39. quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
it;s been fifty-eleven days , um teen hours
imma be burning till u returrrn .

so yea
tat was whut honestly 2004 was alll about
and its very rare for me to go very honest in my blog ya noe
ahahah

so yea
wateva it is
2004 is long gone
halllo 2005!

2004-12-29T09:31:00.000-08:00

everytime when im angry , i just wish i could storm up a rage that is enuff to bring the house down .i wish i could shout the arse off to that person whu made me angry so much that he/she dare not send me on a rage ever again .

but NO . im not
im so weak that when im angry , i just cry .
yes i do .
tears start falling . head start whirling .angry thoughts darting. fingers start cringing.

bluergh.
i hate this side of me

2004-12-28T11:52:00.000-08:00

fished this out from leung yu's aka mr fish blog . bahhahah.
during 2e6 chalet which was very enjoyable and fun . wooots. but it was like weeks ago i tink . heh heh

aniway , its like woah . im feeling tired for nothing. i was suppose to "WORK " but cik o forgot the keys. bahz. so i endded up doing realli simple stuffz . not challenging at all . sigh . but i felt tired thou after walking onlie one level of causeway point when manis had to call. haha. had wanted to go to town but plans were screwed. i dun feel town-y today. sorrie girl for the lame excuse. heh heh . =P

bah. im tired. lethargic and tired
so im outttttttttt

2004-12-28T07:42:00.000-08:00

2004-12-28T02:02:00.000-08:00

woots. brat's b'dae celebration was a tad nice. minus the budget atmosphere of bawah block .
and minus the presence and disturbance of the damn dog . and minus the not realli nice photos coz i tink my cam;s sick todae. or izit just me ? baahhahaahah.

anw , i;m like feeling very bluergh . and i dunno why . i tink i;m very LAZY . yes VERY . bluerrgh .
like bluergh . forget it . shall not rant animore .

but believe it or not. jus helping my uncle wipe the wadbrobe in the kitchen . and i mean onlie two wadrobe is enuff to send me sleeping . heh heh . gosh . i am soooooooooo not the typical anak dara any makcik makcik would want their son to marry to. heh heh . pluz i cant even coook fried nice nicely . heh heh .

but more attempts on helping to spring clean my uncle new house tomorrow .
i lurve that house. noe why ? coz there's this supper big miirrooorr where it shows more then a full length body . its like a dance studio mirror. wohoooooooo . nice ness.heh heh .

gosh . werking for cikgu omar tomorrow never gonna be fun without twinie around.
sigh sigh .its gonna be damn quiet but i hope any kakak kakak would be there tooo. i dunch wan to b alone . no no . okae but just in case, i shall bring lotsa things in case.

discman . poker cards. adobe boook . booook and just in case,

the ever so irritating sista would come in handy ey . bahhhhhahah

can i emphasise once more again that im so glad im hitting skewl back. the boredom's not realli killing me . but just the absence of homework or anything alike . and for everyone;s information , my barron's book is my boring antidote sumtimes. besides this computer, graphic doodling at dobe and of course, bloghoppping .

other than tat, what do i do ? alot of very insignificant and tiring stuffz
the fun-est oof which is of course, SLEEEPING . yesh . even shopping and chilling out doesn't beat sleeping in my list . bcoz my other fun thing to do is of yes, EATING . eh no not EATING .
GORGING (vocab check ? )

haha .
im gonna say gooodbye to 2004 in 3 days time
and when 31 dec comes,
it's time to MOVE ON .

till then , i shall just remember u as the pages of my diary .

moving on .

2004-12-27T15:50:00.000-08:00

okae im very excited about 2005.
and thus, this layout . bahahhahah.

i;m lurving it . the inspiration came from
the manja magazine . and yess. the taufik pics
u see there is the manja onee.

woots. aniwae , thanks sara for the codes. but somehow ,
i dunch noe how to edit it . bahhahahha. so i dinch use it .

we'll b meetting the brat and twinie layta on.
god noes where we r going to cut the cake.
but what i noe is tat , it;s raining . bluergh .
realli bad day to rain .

but i so lurvee ya brat!
ur b;dae has made me inspired to do up this layout.
like at long last .

may u be blessed forever moreee mr brat. heh heh .

2004-12-27T09:40:00.000-08:00

2004-12-27T02:28:00.000-08:00

uh oh .
i tink im quite not inspirated .
like i still hafen finished writing in ilyas's b;dae card. and the present that i wrapped up looks like shitt. yesss realli . i arent joking . bahhahaha.

but that bratty soul sure gonna be extremely touched i hope
if he sees the crazie sistas (twinie and me ) with the cake .
hoho. okae . im exaggerating . heh heh
but one thing for sure. he'll be very smiley . like alwaysssssssssssss. bahhahahhahahahha

but still . i still dunnow where to hold the mini happie b;dae brat celebration at.
i seriously haf no money on me. and yaaaaaaaaargggh . still gotta pay the extra 3 dollars for the cake and yess. ezliiinnnk . baahz. im very broke .

oh kae. worst cum to worst , we'll have it at admiratly park .
its called killing two birds with one stone if he's there.
heh heh heh . no imean . nvm . u dun get my drift and i aren't telling eitha .
but like as if u wanna noe. so whadda hell?

aniwae, today was kicking arse fun . sunday . family day .
by the park . u get the whole idea of a typical family day out dunch u ?
yeaa. to foster the bondds ( it seems to b a cliche oredi ) baahhahahahz.
but no la actuallie
its for the FOOOD baybeh. the food at east coast park there rock my socks.

i ate fish and chips . additional plate of fries . kway teong goreng with cockles .
and mee hooon soto.

how much is tat for a small built girl like .
voracious appetite dun u tink ? heh heh .

yes . tats how nice the food are . heh heh . icoudn't resist .my stomach bulged out right after that indulgence and my mum was oredi shaking her head i suppose . bahahhah

and i went home still feeling hungry . bhahahhaha . i cooked fried rice which tasted like realli shit.
hah . but nevermind about tat

i tink i'd better run and do up brat's card.
that smiley smiley brat .
bahhahahahhaha.

2004-12-26T15:59:00.000-08:00

gosh . the flea market at tanglin mall sure rox.but being quite cashless doesn;t realli help ya noe.
but Aniwae, the whole day yesterday i was at the flea market at tanglin mall.
my aunt had a booth so me n mua sizzie did our part by helping.
nice nieces my aunt got . heh heh .

and i've just realised im on this road to pumping up my wadrobe to another side of me .
u wouldn't iimagine how girlish my wadrobe is .
its half-filled with mango and zara tops. giordano and baleno too.
thats like the onlie brands i haf . the rest is all of coourse, brandless. heh heh .

my next summer collection i hope would be miss sixty and uhh i cant decide yet.
oh great . i've thrown out some clothes .
and when money comes rolling in , there';ll be more to talk about.
meanwhile , just keep on dreaming filzieee

huahuhuhuahauhaua.
by the way , there;s plenty december babies.

ikhsan . farhan . bani . ilyas .

and a whole load more i tink . i saw it in friendster .

eric too rite?

so
HAPPPPY B'dAEEE y'all .

2004-12-25T01:21:00.000-08:00

oh wait. today is christmas . idun celebrate chrisstmas .
but jus one simple wimple wish

i wanna this. hope mah aunts will finance this for me. huahuauaha.
how the hell do u use paypal ?

aniwae shoutout to all the taufik fanatics.
mimi , raf, sizzie, aisyah , kak yan , sheena .

go geet it NOW.

2004-12-25T01:10:00.000-08:00

all of u get this alot in ur email inbox and friendster bulletin dunch u. heh heh.
since there's not muchies to talk about today . let me justify this for mahself.
we'll see how much of this is true ey .
for me tat is .

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted.
uhhh not realli . not one of mah strong points.occasionally stubborn .but hard-hearted wise,
heh . wats that huh ? lost mah knack for english alreadi.

Strong-willed and highly motivated.
yes i am strong willed. i depend on myself for my thinking .
i can be highly motivated but it must depend alot on the circumstances

Sharp thoughts.
oh yes very . i love judgin people alot. and in the streets especially.
its called judging the book by the cover. heh heh .

Easily angered.
easily angered yes . but doesn't have a fiery temper. when im angry , i cry . heh heh .

Attracts others and loves attention.
attract others? i wish . i love attention . realli .

Deep feelings.
uhuh. i have alot of that . but i lurve bottling up my feelings.be it deep or not.

Beautiful physically and mentally.
im beautiful physically coz im blessed normal . u noe whut i mean . with eyes , hands and everything else.
mentally beatiful ? hmmz . could be . but not the parts on making decisions.
i make unpretty bad decisions.

FirmStandpoint.
NO! so nots. im so fickle .

Needs no motivation.
i need some . like whut the hell . NO motivation ? where can sey

Easily consoled.
yes . very . just make me laugh . heh heh .

Systematic(left brain).
oh im not sure about this.

Loves to dream
heh heh. i DREAM . i tink so.

Strongclairvoyance.
uhuhuh . woah . almost 70 percent true so far

Understanding.
uhuh. im miss nice . ahakz

Sickness usually in the ear and neck.
in the ear yes.im deaf . lol. neck no. right now, my backbone hurts alot.

Good imagination
i agree alot.

Good physical.
meaning?

Weak breathing.
perhaps. bcoz i arent a fast or good runneer.

Loves literature and the arts.
the arts department of dancing yes. literature? uhh NOO.

Loves traveling.
sort of. but not PLANB

Dislike being at home.
sumwhat a BIG YES.

Restless.
heh heh . all the time

Hardworking.
onlie at the last minute.

High spirited.
wat does tat mean ? gosh my english sucks doesn't it. but i tink so la. hahhahha

Spendthrift
VERRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

ahaa. so its like 90percent fool proof afterall.
tell me whu did this psychological thing men.
he/she must hav read my mind or smting.
hakz.

2004-12-24T14:11:00.000-08:00

i've been very inspired of late hafent i ? heh . and getting the knack of doing graphics with adobe just cant make me stop doing my nonsensical stuffz. huahua.

thus, the random pikchas u've been viewing of late. but aniwae, its the back to skewl season . so i hafta wrap the boooks for bro n kuzzins . and perhaps mebbe get myself a cheap skewl bag .
somewhat, i lurve grungy stuffz now. grunge . grunge. but i tink the grunge brushes that i have is not insparitional enuff. heh heh .

wht im gonna do todae? uhhm . stay home until 6 . afterwhich , its out with mah sizziee. krazie-ness. i tink i miss her nonsenese sumwhat . huahua .

and two more random pikchas

both pics with pao-iee. gosh . i miss her . i dooooo! hurry the holidaes sistaz! haha .

and yaynes. i;ve gotten myself a new last name thanks to aini.
i tink it rhymes . filziee wilziee. huahua. and yes aini.filziee pilziee sounds weird . umwhat like a slimming pil brand. heh heh .

2004-12-24T09:18:00.000-08:00

2004-12-24T01:23:00.000-08:00

the let the anger and everything out antidote

adobe photoshop cs !

i was so very cute back then . heh heh .
dun u tink ?

and upon bro's request ,

and the pic on the right featuring taufik is new tooo.

o shouldn't i start everything a new then ?
let inspiration hit me and a new layout may
sparkle and shine . hmm

can i make that my new year's resolution no. 2.

no. 2 . start everything back from zero .

uhuh .

2004-12-23T05:46:00.000-08:00

thou this song mite seeems so last suummmer ,
it has tide me over thru this days .

burn - usher .

it's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for you except but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

but happie bdae anyway.
may you be blessed forever more.

=) i should .

2004-12-22T07:10:00.000-08:00

i am SO back to my emotional drift again.
but NO.
its nt gonna be pen-ed down here .

i'll leave u all with a sense of bliss .
i feel blessed to have great siblings.
and to treasure them all the same .

2004-12-21T07:58:00.000-08:00

oh today was a fun trip to orchard road
coz its those times like once in a bluee moon that i met like so manie of mua frens.
okae like is eight considered many ? its manie to me anyway . doesnt matter what u tink
hoho.

i saw ...
wanxian .
glacinta .
and the e6 girl whom i forgot her name .

and sheena called me to say tat she noes im town .
and wanted to see if fate could let us meet . and whadya noe
we bumped into each otha and i saw..

sheena .
jill .

walked all the way to hmv .and along the way saw sumone very familiar
as i walked briskly , this boy caught my attention.
he loooked familiar. and i tot he reallie resembled my crazieee online friend
FARIS!and yes. it was him but i dinch say hi to him incase i got the wrong person .LOL
but aniwae he called me and said he got the same reaction wen he saw me .
so there

faris.

and we walked into hmv . and we walked and we walked.
the three of us - fadhil ,twinie and me .
and yet again . saw anotha fren .

zihui! she was all alone and decided to tag along with us .
so yea there we go . from trio to four- o .

and we took neoprint . of which u can view layta .

and the 8th person we bump into was
asanul nazryn . hoho.
small werld. small werld. i should tink tat the person he was with was his gurlfren i suppose.
so i onlie managed a hi . and a smile
and did i mention i lurve asanul nazyrn's smilleeee?
hahahahhahha .

and yet more. we bumped into fadhil's fren .
but that doesn't count . coz i dun even noe them .

but what a hella of a great day .

and here goes .

ahahha.anw i think tat fadhil dun look a wee bit
manly at all in those neoprints.

so much for " i dun wan to take neoprint ah . dunch noe how to pose"

ya rite. LOL

2004-12-20T14:13:00.000-08:00

i seriously think that it's the wrong month to go broke!
december holidaes. new year's coming.
significant people birthdaes.
aftermath of o level boreedoom

OMG! can i just kill myself for not controlling my expenses for rainy days like this?
shitness .

anw, i was told taufik rapped in triple noize's song " did u ever wonder ?"
and im d/ling tat now . hoho.
trying to figure out which part taufik rapped.
hoooho.

tu pun best siak filzieee . sheeeshz ~

2004-12-20T07:40:00.000-08:00

i;ve been feeling very nostalgic of late. i guess it's common perhaps bcoz the year's about to end .
and the chapters in the 2004 book gonna come to an end . a story of which in my boook has yet to haf any happy ending - onlie endless sufferings and question marks . so i shall just hope for a happier beginning in the chapter of the 2005 story as i begin my path in the JC . yea u heard it . INNOVA JC fer the first 3 months .

and yes . believe it or not. when is my mr perfect prince charming gonna ride his horse past my kingdom ? LOL .

and i';ll leave u with this nostalgic photo . uhuh .

the girls i've been growing up since secondary one . =)
we've gone from hate to love .
hah . so the phrase is true .
ur greatest enemy could be your bestest fren .

the four of us . doing great . and loooking uhmmmmm great too in the last pic. LOL . =P

2004-12-19T16:35:00.000-08:00

fancy twinie waking me up at 11am . sheesh .
i could sleep furtha but i had to move my oredi hurt-ed butt up
and get changing to do sum lil job.

and so we went distrubuting flyers.hoho
and we were supposed to distribute it door to dooor.onlie at malay doors.
god dammit. it was so tiring and diffucult to make out the malay house s.
so we just settled for the letter box. hohohohohoo.
cheating yea. but whu cares.
its just tuition flyers . and it wun hurt giving it to non malays too whut.
heh heh .

okae now im alone at home
im not that bored. but im feeling very . dunno what to say la.
i'll sleep layta on
but before tat.

do my mum n me really look alikee?
nah . see this .

if we do, then great! i could take part in those mum lookalike contest
and win money ! LOL . im so brokkkee

hoho. and wut about sizzie n me . do we do we do we?

twinie and me ? heh

okae . last . bro n me ? LOL .

hohooh. okae. now i can sleep .
heh
gd nite people.
i mean good evening . heh heh

2004-12-19T10:55:00.000-08:00

wweee~my mum is the nicest laydee on planet earth. she helped me turn down a boy i dun fancy offer to go out down . heh . so it aren't my fault. my mum dun bless it.
so i should listen to my mum . im a good daughter . i listen to my mum . hohoohhoh.

so sorry dude
* evils laughter *

2004-12-18T08:49:00.000-08:00

i tink i can start thinking of my new year resolution oredi.

no.1 . STOP and ABHOR from drinking COCA COLA.
it realli has devastating effect on me . to which i cant spell it out here la.
but yea . bottomline is , i should stop drinking coca cola .

orite.

so today was a very fun day.
laughters. best friends. 2e6. foood
i lurve it !

cycling tooo . my butt hurts after that little fall. HOHO.

aniwae, i feel blessed once again!

2004-12-17T21:33:00.000-08:00

suprise. suprise.
see there. when i aint got nothin to do ,
it'll be absolutely nothing.

and when it cums to a boring weekend,
it's realli boring

but fo today , im so spoilt for choice.
im gonna have fun
and recover from yesterday's thingiee
i sure am.

oh yea. thanks mimi for all those cheering up! heh .
hoho and coincidentally, to the rest tooo who were on msn with me.
fariz. azf. and yeaah azri hongkah .

u made my day .
unlike sum people.
so thank you's

2004-12-17T06:24:00.000-08:00

let's talk about the secondary school life. if for anything , i;d say secondary school life is the best phase of my life to discover whu i was really am .

when i first came to swiss cottage , i swear that i so did not like the school .
yulk! in every way it loooks preetty much like my old primary schoool .and i dun find anything special it that skewl eitha . so yea . i came to tat skewl with very kental short hair. (bahhahh ) and on the first day of skewl , i came with swis s tshirt and TRACK PANTS. and i was the onlie one whu was dressed like tat . which made me stand out in a very negative way . heh .

i dinch noe whu to say my first hi tooo becoz i was busy searching whu could be my BEST FREN for the next 4 years. for the first month , i din realli fancy my sec 1 malay classmates . hoho . we dinch fight but i isolated myself from them coz i tot they hated me very much . so yea. i mingled with the chinese fren . and i tink it was yiqian and rachel . yea . so i came on by surviving the first month of my sec one life with them . it came to a point where i realli hated swiss cottage secondary and cried . i pestered my father to b transfered to riverside secondary cos that' s were my ever wonderful sizzie was ! heh heh .

but things took for a change . i began to realise that i've entered a realm tats no more im miss popular. cos i was miss popular back then in primary school coz of my bro n mum . so yeaa . and it makes me feel verry bluuuerrrgh . very unwanted . very unpretty . very kental . very useeles. but HEY . then i realise being popular is llike so not everything.

i worked things out with my class mates , atiqa, shima and sufie . and WHADya noe?
we are the best of friends now. and im lurving it .

the other significant year would b secondary 4 . yeaaaaa. O LEVELS
all the grit . all the pain. alll . and everything was alll very worthwhilee.

along the path of secondary school life, i've grown to be more matured in thinking.
i used to believe everything people said. but because i learn SBQ , i noe how to judge sources . NO LA. it's more because of all the things tat had happen in sec skewl life. i've
come across realli strange characters in the skewl

people whu dun look smart but actuallie am smart.
people whu loook very smart but actuallie am realli not.
people whu fabricate stories about their families, life for god noes what !
people whu care for u when u cry .
people whu r very unreasonable and angsty like the bengs and lians .

and whut do i learn from them ? HELL ALOT. i would say .

and the teacherrrs for one. i lurve them for being very supportive .caring. funny and best of alll
PRODUCTIVE . heh heh .

i dunnow why but i just like the feeeling of reminiscing (sp?) back about secondary skewl life.
it has taught me ALOT . i swear.

2004-12-16T19:01:00.000-08:00

ooohh gooodness heavens.
i got my ultimate choice.

INNOVA JC here i cum.
okae wrong.
INNOOVA campus here i cum!
weee~

( seee? so much for ranting before and after prelims
that i will never . and will not . will not. go for first 3 mths ! )
LOL .

2004-12-16T04:22:00.000-08:00

tomorow is the PAE results.
no suprises if i get into innova jc
but it would be very suprising infact
if i dun get into tat jc . hoho
but the probability of me entering tat jc would be -i say-
quite high la . heh heh . its a new jc bahz ~

and tomorow's the release of the n level results too.
hoho. so mua frens , good luck yea!
dun cry ! hahahhah . oh yeah.
okae.
i still remember tat i broke down in tears even be4
getting my hml o level results . heh heh .
the emotional side of me laaaaaaaaaaaa.

2004-12-15T22:21:00.000-08:00

u gonna seee this everyday till 2005 starts. hoho.

twinie gonna scream and laugh her arse off if i spill everything to her.
LOL . but then again , seeeing her do that would be soooo much fun ey.

o i lurve twinie for that . LOL.

annd i lurve MIMI toooooooooo . LOL

2004-12-15T07:35:00.000-08:00

save my sizzie sumbody . gosh
she's more than the word irritating can describe
and less or in fact not adorable at all.

she's been coming up with stupid things
so stupid that i just cant hold back my laughter at all

o there she is . she just cant leave me in peace. gosh .

fancy marching past me .
left .left. left .right. left.
and the next thing she says
" kak this is farnie " .

and tadaa * when she turned she had this white piece of paper
stucked on her BUTT . with the words
" FARHAN ROX " o so nots.

and this is just among jillions of her nonsense
that i;ve been tolerating.

o mah gawdddd.
she needs treatment badly. sheesh

aniwae, so much for wanting to go out alone today .heh heh.
i ended up in job interviews with miss shimot . i've got so sick of job hunting oredi la actuallie but just for the sake of accompanying her , i went la . i ;m not pinning too much hope .

coz for once, i am so glaaaaaaaad and verrrry glad that i decided to do
the 3months jc thing. it's gonna be fun i'm sureee. wohhohooh.

aniwae, saw fix just now with her boo. woots. his boo is beautiful ey .

k i tink i got otha things to do .hohohohoohohohohoh.

2004-12-14T08:14:00.000-08:00

if whut fadhil say is truuee

" eh the leader sey okae. but blomm tanye boss"

then im so happpie tat i'll be nearer to finding a job.
a non temporary one at that.
a daily paid one.
ooo weee.

im thrilled ~! wwwwwwwehhhoooo

2004-12-14T04:21:00.000-08:00

i like this quote in sufie's msn nick.

" putting the ASS in U and ME . ASSUME "
yeah. that's just the perfect quote for me. i like to asssume too much.
and u all dunch need to noe about whut. heh heh .

BUT its been days just staying at home and it gets realli diffucult
to plan things up with fellow frens. like today.
was supposed to have a home movie gathering at someone's housey with
twinie, shimot, mo, arif and syafiq but plans were thwarted.no house available ey.hoho.
mebbe we should just plan a trip to the beach la. just me twinie and shimotie. huhuhuhuhuh.

ORRR mebbbe. i shall just go out by MYSELF alone tomorow. tat will save alot of trouble and hassle ey .

and worse still , plans to go johore this week is cancelled . there goes my new hair do
i have been wishing for. bluerrgh . nahh . but it's okae thou .

and i see myself this week just BUMMING at home.
anD SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO .

i realli hope to hear sum good news from fadhil todae.
sumtink like

" FILZAH. ada tempat kerja kosong ah pat tepak sirih "

PURLEEEEZ! save me from being bored and broke .

but on anothe note, it feels good to be at home u noe. u feel lurved .
not liike sum kind of teenager whu just waste time under the blocck making noises eyyy
but sheeesh~ nono. kidding ey . huahauhua . but it gets irritating when there's the irritating pest at home to always bug me .

meet mah sizzie.
but no u would rather not.
i swear. hoho.

2004-12-13T23:41:00.000-08:00

i was reading cleo . and found this perfect page where it shows the beauty resolution.
of 10 , 7 hit the nail! i sooo need them . and i came up with this . woots .

haha! an excited and caring momo called to ask me out
awww. tats so sweet .after reading my blog i suppose. LOL!

but im sick la. the feeling of being sick for the third day running.
i had to keep stuffing the vicks inhaler in my nose to clear it.
and the coougghing! bluerrghs .

chatted with fadhil and he said there MIGHT be job vacancy at
tepak sirih! woots. 5 dolar per hour ting. * prays there is *

2004-12-12T09:56:00.000-08:00

i LURVE IT .
thanks kak zanna! i lurve u loads!
now this would realli show my obsession for mr TAUFIK BATISAH .
but dun worrie la. im just an OBSESSED FAN .

heh heh . Bluuuueeeks : P

will get on to doing a fansign layta when i noe the magic of image blending.

meanwhile ,

im pooofing off . I LURVE TAUFIK baybeh !

2004-12-11T21:48:00.000-08:00

i have over 50 emails in my inbox . and they are all so redundat i swear. oh wait no. except for a few. and thats like onlie 3 . AND the worst thing is i cant seem to like delete the emails. there's sumthing wrong with it since like forever. it's been sticking around since a month ago . SO . i have a question. isit just MY pc. or does it happen to all otha users as well. it gets very infuriating. REALLI.

more infuriating to have running nose. i have used up gazillions tissues . my eyes are getting redder . bluergh . and my nose wooling bigger too. yikes. and i missed yet anota job oppurtunity. dammit. im realli broke . i nid money . i so hoe i will be called again sumwhat this christmas or whut! jus give it to me. heh .

andd noe whut!
i so cant wait to begin skewl . its realli getting meaningless to just face this damned computer which smtimes gets on my nerves with all the trojans, bugs and all . oh and its not as if people reallli care to ask me out this holidae. BLUERGH .

so give me back the books and notes .
i wanna hit them hard and start rollicking with 'em .

for the fun of it . here's whut they call the boring antidote. PIKCHAS.

im cured

2004-12-10T06:39:00.000-08:00

i'm CURED . i'm cured.
i'm no longer weak after watching tat
rendition of i dream and belaian jiwa by
our MR TAUFIK BATISAH .

gosh. im realli awwwed .
o and HAPPYY B'dae tooo.
too bad i cant hug him like those whu did in the IKHLAS Show.
men .

but seriously. im getting better . woots.
and for ur info, i ate medicine . but not pills.
those syrups for kid medicine u noe. heh .
i feel so childish but it cant be helped coz i'll die if
i even try to swallow a pill just like how i did the other time
when i tried when i fell victim to CHICKEN POX>
but thank god ! im still alive

okae . i'll live u people with a oh-so-farnie joke .
my fren : u ngah uat pe
me : tengok ikhlas
my fren :oh org yang tengok tu ikhlas tak ?
me : * rolls eyes *
my fren : *laughs *

gosh . not farnie ey .

NO WORK > argh

2004-12-09T19:17:00.000-08:00

im so hoping mad that i hafta be sick today , of all days.
dammit. im realli broke and i so need that part time daily job that
my uncle had given me .and the pay is so good that urrrgh .
why do i haf to b sick today .dammit .
this sickness haf deprived me of my pay ( if i had werked)
and that pay i ihaf intended to buy me a new pair of jeans
, cap and sum accesories. bluuerrgh .
theere goes my wish list.

my head in a whirl.
my throat feels funny.
i keep coughing non stop
annnd i tink i've gotaa running nose sooon.

gosh . hate it alot.
i wanna worK! work~
bluerrghs .

and did i mention i hate medicine as well

*SNEEZES *
= (

yucks.

2004-12-08T19:45:00.000-08:00

i went to sleep with an uneasy stomach. which i really did not know why.was it the bbq food or sumting?did i eat too much ?perhaps. perhaps not la .
but anyhow, the stomach was on the verge of killing me . like as in i hate being reminded of im gonna get sick soon . cos i'll have to take medicine. which is totally yucks . annnnd.

i woke up at 430 am onlie to see myself VOMITTING very badly.
eeeks. it was splattered all over the toilet floor dammit. and the worst thing was
everyone was asleep . and after the really sickening vomitting session , i felt my stomach burst and my head's in a whirl . and guess whut . i still had to clear up the mess. which took like half an hour bcos it was really splattered all over. eeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkksssssss.

and bottomline is . i hate being sick. i hate it. i irk taking medicine. YULK! bluergh .
but i tink and hope i would be okae in the dae. it's always attacking more at nite i guess.
okae no! dun gimme a fever yet! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

see. now i hafta stay at home. plan ruined. dammmiit.

no title fer today

2004-12-08T08:46:00.000-08:00

heh. i agree lah with the superman ikhsan that taufik is just everywhere. ( refers to doodleboard )
but u see.that's the point of being the SINGAPORE IDOL aren't it .heh. so yea.

aniwae. i still need to re-touch-up this layout. and get it to be more
taufik-ied . LOL. meanwhile, this will do lah.

i've beeen busy basically trying to do things that'll keep me busy while i'm aimlessly
so unproductive . today , i've been up to bbq-ing with the class peeps.
but i din bring my digi thou . so yea. no pikchas. but there's always mah sista nana to
give me the picccs yea. heh

kaela. it was okae alright. but i think the other bbq was more fun-ner. cos there were lotsa more people. in this gathering , onlie like 20 or perhaps less than tat turned up . i spent half the time eating while majority of others were likee busy with their little gambling business.

haha! i was just a spectator there watching intensely as sheena loses her money and the luckier ones gaining la. i dun understand the blackjack game aniwae. heh. thou it seems simple yea.

o yea.on my job hunting search , i'm still at it . and i tink it's like quite late! bluerrrggghh.
but nevermind laa.
just keep on trying baybeeh .
i've tried
siam kitchen .golden village.cathay cineplex

and perhaps tmrw
metro and pan pac hotel .
woots.

any kind soul out there to teach me css ? heh

WELCOME BACK . heh .

2004-12-07T19:43:00.000-08:00

OMG! like finally i can write sumthang in here.
i've been hoppping from diary to diary .
like pitas.com , diaryland.com . and they died on me too .
but like yess. finallly .blogger lurves me! woots.

okae so anw. i've missed out blogging all ther perks in my life.
the end of o levels.
graduation dae.
hari raya . the beginning and soon to be the end.
and oh.
SINGAPORE IDOL .
okae i noe it like quite lat summer to talk about it BUT
the fever is still on yea.
not the SINGAPORE IDOL fever thou.
its more of the TAUFIK fever.

and speaking of which , i cant decide and haf not got the inspiration yet
to do a so-me layout. inspiration anyone? inspire me sumbody.
but i haf in mind a taufik layout but its gonna be tough coz my photoshop editing getting really dusty . so we'll see how. meanwhile i've gotta do with the simple looking layout from sumwhere i got in my junk folder . heh .

once again ,
HALLLLLLOOO peeeeoooople.
i miss bloggging verry much baybeh .